>[Making Ends Meet]<

Wish Me Luck!

2009-05-04T06:33:00.001-07:00

I'll be having calculus exam tommorow and here I am posting some shit.

I'm feeling discontent and anxiety engulf me.

Urgh...

Can't wait for camp this Friday at Tanjung Labuh, Batu pahat.

Yeay!

Been hit by a cannon from memory lane.

2009-05-02T21:28:00.000-07:00

Tsk...
One vision is enough, but by giving one man a couple of those just makes him miserable.
I hate it! Wouldn't it be better if it happened in real life and not just in my dreams!?!
The time and circumstances is just not right!
Arghh!

World Tapir Day!

2009-04-30T21:12:00.001-07:00

26 April 2009

Zoo Negara!

Crap Cycle.

2009-04-30T11:07:00.000-07:00

Well, it's May and semester will end in about 10 more days, then the whole cycle would start again.

It's been 2 years (2 years?? Happy 2nd anniversary! Tsk..) since that boy started off clueless of what lies in front of him. Stepping into the wrong crowd, thinking that the skill of surviving in deep thick jungle could be adapted in the man made jungle of bricks and buildings.

Eyes opened wide, the whole cultural shock scene is inescapable.

First shock ever, the 1st semester results. Its hard to get back to correct lane after that, and still struggling to keep it that way now. Too late perhaps?

Hoorah! No turning back.. Hehe..

Tralala~~~

2009-04-13T18:06:00.000-07:00

Lazy March?

Maybe it's gonna be a lazy April too.

:P

5 Minutes Break From The World

2009-02-28T18:24:00.000-08:00

Usually if my class ended late, I would stay back at my college to avoid traffic congestion at MRR2. Then at 8p.m, I'll have my Maghrib prayer at the nearby Petronas.

After my 5 minutes of solitude from the whole world, I got up and saw this guy entering the surau. He's maybe in his 40's, a little bit bald, with a little bit of gray hair and wearing a red shirt. Looks like he was returning from work or something. There was nobody else, only the 2 of us in the surau.

Out of courtesy I smiled at him, just like I would at everybody else. He smiled back. Now, whats interesting is that suddenly he said,

"Bagus kan awak? Susah nak jumpe orang muda sembahyang sekarang."

"A'ah," I chuckled, looked at his face and continue my way to the car.

It kept me thinking. Is it so hard for the young generation of Muslim's in Malaysia to pray? Just 5 minutes and 5 times a day just to show our faith to Allah. Is it too hard? I wonder.

By his statement orang muda, it reminds me of my ustazah during my childhood and still does. She said that don't just think of Allah only when you are old, as you will never know when your life would be taken back. This lingers in my head all the time.

Enjoy life and just forget about your responsibilities and sins and then repent when older?? That's preposterous.

I'll make it clear here. I'm not really someone who is really religious. But after being grown up in a family which enterprises on religion from I'm still young and also after been sent to sekolah agama for 6~7 years, I'm stupid if I don't know which is my responsibility as a child and also my responsibility to myself.

I know I cant escape from committing sins, but that doesn't mean I could just discard my faith just like that right?

Live life, enjoy the world, but not until you forgot about akhirat. It's a one way ticket. Use it wisely.

Being 20

2009-02-21T02:18:00.000-08:00

What does it feels like be 20?

It feels.. Old? I don't know. Suddenly I feel like 20% of my brain mass drops rapidly.
How could I lost my keys 2 times in 2 days?? Which cost me much lost of time and energy!

One: During the time I was following my sister to the dentist and I left my car keys there.

The next day.

Two: I left my keys in my parents car when they were here in KL and on their way back to Johor. Thanks God they are still in the area. Then they left my set of keys at my aunties house and I have to retrieved it later at night. That means after I send my friends to Unisel Batang Berjuntai!! It's damn far! Shah Alam and Batang Berjuntai!

Damn.

14 February 2009

2009-02-14T07:40:00.000-08:00

6.30 a.m: Woke up at the sound of B.Y.O.B by System of a Down screaming at my ear. I turn off the alarm. Check messages on my hand phone for birthday messages. Reply with excitement. At least people still remember me... :D

Solat subuh.

7.30 a.m:- Yahoo messenger with my sis.

Kakni: jom

Me: mane?

Kakni : ntah. gym ke jog?

Me: hehe... jog?

Kakni: mama konpem kan tak dtg arini?

Me: a'ah..

suraya : bile abg call mama?

Me : mlm td gak. hehe

Kakni: ermmm... g jog jap.. ntah.. akak terase nk g gym tu sbb nk g steam bath. best! hehee

Me: haha... okey... :P

Kakni: kul 7.45

Me: err... jap... kte nak g gym ke nak g jog jer?

Kakni: err... ntah.. tetibe mata ngantuk lak. hahahahah

Me: haha.. sekeh nak?

Kakni: jog la.. esok akak g gym

Me: okey... hehe

9.30 am:- After a 1 hour jogging period at tasik titiwangsa.

Kakni: Kluang Station jom..

Me: jom.. nak g yg kat mane ek? carrefour ampang?

Kakni: Tesco ampang.

9.45 a.m:- After arrival at Tesco Ampang

Me: mcm belum bukak jer Kluang Station

Kakni: cbe tanye..

Me: da bukak ke bang?

Guy- waves hand, signs Kluang Station is still not opened yet.

Me: jalan2 dlu jom...

Kakni: akak nak beli roti n susu..

Me: kakni........ nak ketaaaaaaaaaaaaam.............

Kakni: Heh, okey. For the birthday boy.

Kakni- quickly calls mum for ketam masak cili recipe.

11.30 a.m: Follows kakni to see the dentist. Although I have to meet Fatin Azreen at 12 p.m. Quickly messages Fatin.

12.30 p.m: Realizes car keys are gone. Rigorously searched under the bed, my sister's car and the house for keys. Realizes its not here.

12.40 p.m: My sis received a call from the dentist office about a missing set of keys. It's seems like its mine. Shower. Make a quick dash to the dentist which really took a lot of time because of traffic jams. Take keys. Return my sister's car. But the problem is my car is in her parking space. quickly park the myvi outside. Use the newly retrieved lost pair of keys to start the iswara. Quickly park the iswara somewhere it would not block the road which is kinda far. Park the myvi in it's place. Make a quick run to the iswara. Fuck. It's 2 p.m. Drive like a madman to Bukit Jalil.

2.40 p.m: Arrived safely at hostel to pick up Fatin. Goes to Petronas for Zohor prayer.

3.00 p.m: Arrived at Nando's. Eat. hehe...

Gamba terhensem Fatin.
haha...

3.30 p.m: Mum calls..

Mum: Abang... Mama da otw g kl nie.. rindu la kat you all...

Me: huh?? mama ckp mama tak jadi datang semalam!

Mum: Rindu kat anak2 mama kat KL .. tbe2 rase mcm nak dtg.. ni da sampai tol ayer itam... hehe..

Me: hehe... okey.. drive hati2.. ( dalam hati: Aiyark! tengah celebrate b'day, rumah belum kemas, kakni tengah bz nak study and aku kene g sepang esok pagi. Sudden change of plans! naseb baek mama sendiri... hehe.. :D)

Makan cepat. Quickly goes to secret recipe at sri petaling and buy a couple pieces of cakes. :D~
Kempunan beb.Woot! White Chocolate Macadamia! Drop off Fatin at hostel. Quickly drives back to Taman Kosas.

4.30pm: After sweeping my rooms floor.

Kakni: Abang, 4 ekor ketam cukup ke untuk 4 orang makan?

Me: Erk, mane cukup!

Kakni: Jap lagi abang pegi Tesco beli ketam lagi.

Me: Ok, takder hal. (Yeay! More crabs!!)

5.30pm: Goes to Carrefour since Tesco is a wee bit more farther. Grabs 4 big fat crabs ang goes back home. Continue to clean the house.

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7.45: My parents arrived.

Dad: Ayah beli ketam. Abang cakap abg nak makan ketam so td kitorang singgah kat Tesco dan beli ketam.. hehe...

Me: Erk, tadi abg baru je g Carrefour beli ketam lagi.

Mum: La, tak btau.. Lau tak td terus pergi sini.

Me: Mane la abang tau. ( Yeay! more crabs!!!!!)

Ketam masak cili terbest!
hehe..
:P~

What a hectic day. Usually life goes along like a snail. When you look at it it will go slow- practically not moving at all- accept those feelers on the front of their head. But today, its like when we turn our head to look at it the second time, the snail has already move elsewhere far away from the last place it was. Leaving along its slimy trail.

Surely my plans for tomorrow will change again.

But for now. I'll sleep with my stomach full of crabs.

:)

Birthday Boy

2009-02-13T08:02:00.001-08:00

I sit alone in the dark, the birthday boy. I could have left the lights on, but with only a couple of minutes to go it hadn't seemed worth it. Typical, really.

Well, this is it. Or this was it, at least.

This was a conscious choice, as little comfort as that gives me now. Most people did the refresh on a five or ten year cycle, but not me. A perfect year after a perfect year, that’s what I was after, and that’s what I’ve got, sort of. Last year's birthday is one of the best birthday in my entire life. This year, it seems dull. After having something better from the last one. I wished.

I could have changed my fate. But It seems better like this.

I’d never been on this side before, clearly. This was an experience I - or anybody else - will never learn from. Shame, really, because all I want to do is grab myself by the shoulders and yell in my face, telling myself it’s not worth it, living forever by dying every year.

Too late now. It will always be too late, I expect.

I can just make out the digital display on the clock. 30 seconds left.

Happy birthday to me

Happy birthday

To…

I hate Valentine's Day

2009-02-13T04:10:00.000-08:00

Why must my birthday fall on valentine's day? Why not on the 15th of February? Is it the sign of my mother's love to my dad? Or is it just a coincidence?

The typical slur people gave me. Especially on MY birthday. I hate it.

Every year without a doubt. Some a**hole will say it. It's not that I don't value their thoughtfulness. It's just that I hate it. I'll smile. Looked like I appreciated their effort.

But I'm just being hypocrite.

Well... Enough about that.

Being a Muslim it is also my job, my duty to not celebrate Valentine's day. But my college (Technology Park Malaysia College, TPMC) decides to celebrate it. They have put heart shaped balloons, put decorations and also organized a candle night dinner for the students!

But to my astonishment, some of the crew that organize the event are Muslims! Could they be called as Murtads now as they imitate other religions? Wallahualam.

Why did the management of TPMC approved such events and did not even bother to celebrate Maulidur Rasul? The birthday of Prophet Muhamad.

The celebration of love. Islam have already said that we must love each other all the time and don't make enemies. Therefore we should celebrate love everyday and not on a specific day only right?

Heh... Now. Want to join me and sabotage tomorrows event at TPMC? It would be the best birthday present ever! :D

Guys like me can cook too you know!

2009-02-09T09:13:00.000-08:00

They say that a road to a man's heart is through his stomach.. Since there's no one that would cook for me other than my family, then I'll cook for myself. It's a lie if you say you like to eat but you don't even have the passion on how the food is cooked. Hehe...

And here's my ayam masak herba.

Steamed for one and a half hours until the chicken is really soft and would melt in your mouth! Yum!

In the back is my ayam masak sambal. Hehe... With a handfull of cili padi. I like it spicy.. :D

In front is my udang goreng kari. Yum2! I finished the whole plate! My sis helped too! Hehe..

Care for second helpings?

Something Yellow With Holes!

2009-02-02T21:13:00.001-08:00

Can't get it out of my head!

Are ya ready kids?

Aye, Aye captain!

I can't heeeaaar yooouuu!

AYE, AYE CAPTAIN!

oooooooooooo.........

Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?

Sponge Bob Square Pants!

Absorbent and yellow and porous is he.

Sponge Bob Square Pants!

If nautical nonsense be somethin' ya wish.

Sponge Bob Square Pants!

Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish.

Sponge Bob Square Pants!

Ready?

Sponge Bob Square Pants,
Sponge Bob Square Pants,
Sponge Bob Square Pants,
Sponge Booob Square Paaants!

Ah Ha Ha, Ha Ha Ha, Ha, hArgh wh..arire..Ha arrrigh.

Time Warp

2009-02-01T09:36:00.000-08:00

Ever wondered if life have a big reset button somewhere and it could make all of our failures and mistakes go away? To take a turn on fate.

I did.

But life is not that simple. These very mistakes, failures and turn of fate is what makes us the way we are right now. We may not feel it. We may not realize it. But humans change from mistakes.

We evolve just like our ancestors million of years ago to adapt to the surroundings. These changes that happens to us is what makes us stronger more adaptable to situations. It makes us aware to not repeat it again.

Think about your past mistakes. Repent. Evolve. Make improvements. Don't repeat it again in the same manner before.

Love yourself. Hate your past as much as you want but that won't make yourself any better. Be a better person.

There is no reset button. Look to the future as it will bring much light!

WTF???

2009-02-01T05:18:00.001-08:00

I was browsing around the internet and then I found this picture from Japan.

Just WTF???? Shave the baby?? Since when does babies grow bodily hair like that???
OK, Japan is innovative and is on top of the class in technology and all.
But this??
Haha...

edit: And then i found another picture.............

??????
KFC + Maid Costume = ???

Who's Awesome?

2009-01-31T16:31:00.000-08:00

I'm Awesome!
Love yourself!
And others will follow!
:D

Fighting The Truth

2009-01-31T07:16:00.000-08:00

Lying is something that we developed unconsciously. Little kids would even lie under some silly circumstances just to get away from something. But me, I lie unconsciously without even thinking and then I'll regret it when things turn bad or I was found out.

Sometimes when I was found out i would probably just make another stupid excuse and lie some more in very rare cases i would just look puzzled and act like i don't know. The face is the most important part. Being hipocrite and also pasive-aggrasive all this time something that I regret doing even though I did this unconciously. Well, saying no is hard and thats why lying is sometimes an option.

Lying is in my blood. I still remember when I was in primary school when I didn't do my homework (damn I hate homework and i didn't do it most of the times.. haha) and the only excuses we could do at that time was " Saye da siap da tapi lupe bawak cikgu," or " Saye tertinggal cikgu," and my favourite "Huh, yeke cikgu? Saye tak ingat pown." Haha...

No wonder I had bruises after the teacher('s) pinch my body. And then I had to lie to my parents why I have all these bruises. Telling them the truth? No way... I'll just get another wallop from them. Haha...

It's bad habit. I'm lazy and I know it. Well, the first step for self improvement is awareness right? Well good luck with that... Hehe...

Gaming Frenzy / Assignment Replacement??

2009-01-30T04:12:00.000-08:00

Yeay! It's still semester break and lot's of free time too spare!! I've been playing some games this week and I want to share some of my toughs.

FALLOUT 3

This game revolves around a post nuclear war in 2277. It's a fps with a nice touch of rpg ( god i do love neverwinter nights 2) combine both of them an whalla! Pure awesomeness!

The games start off in a very unusual manner. Have you ever played a game where you start off as a baby?? When you start right off from the womb?? The first 5 minutes have left a very good impression to me :D

But there's one thing that disturbs me is that the weapons sometimes do very little damage and misses a lot! No. My hands are not pengkor! The other thing is the currency is in bottle caps.. Huhh??

So, back to shooting mindless mutated human ghouls!

Left 4 Dead

Wow, when was the last time i played a games where there's a horde of zombies that can't wait for braaaaaaaaaaaiiins...........

But wait.. The zombies are fast! This is not faaaaaair........

Unlike any other zombie games I've played before this games full potential is in its co-op mode. It could support 4 players but since I'm using a pirated version (Shhh....) of this game and does not support the co-op mode. Therefore 75% of the total fun is lost... :(

If you're looking for an endless horde of zombies to be shot down by a shotgun then this is a game for you.. :D

Prince of Persia 4

One thing. Pure Win! ZOMG! This is really awesome the graphic is superb the sound and music is great and the gaming style is what have caught me the most. One thing for sure its like watching a real live animation movie instead of a game. The game play is smooth and depends on the players skills, button mashing is rare.

In this game dying is not an option, Elika will save you in and you'll start right back at the last checkpoint, therefore making this game too easy.

Gahh... I still have an assignment on catalytic converters, tutorials to be done, research on some gibberish cultural anthropology and stuffs... Wish me luck!

5 Weeks of Anger Management??

2009-01-12T19:35:00.000-08:00

Last 5 weeks of holiday could be a torture for me from all the stress, boredom and also from all the angst within me. Thanks to my dad I have manage to stay away from all of the problems and become more fit. :D

Well, you must be thinking how did i manage to do this right?

Drums rolling!
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Yeay! Saya jadi kuli dan juga menggolek tong!
Heheh...

Curik tulang jap... Men amek gambar...
hahah....

Sokonglah barangan Malaysia yer? Gunekan lah gas Petronas...
hahaha.......

>I'm Back In KL<

2009-01-09T21:08:00.000-08:00

A new semester of more studying, assignments and head grinding problems. Yeah, can't wait for that to happen.
:D

Class would probably start tomorrow and i can't wait to meet all my friends again. As for now, lets hope that i won't repeat my mistakes from the last 5 semesters ok?

My results from last semester shows some dramatically increase in performances. It's still not much but it's a boost for my spirit. I'll try to keep it up and much harder too!!

Well.. I have to put some points into my azam baru No. 2 right?? NO! It's still not enough!
hahaha...

Why cipan?

2009-01-04T08:40:00.000-08:00

You might want to ask me why do i love this endangered species so much?

Why am i so inclined to this animal?

It all started when i was in kindergarten, when i saw this!
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It was eye catching. It was cute. I was a kid. This very cup could have brainwashed me into loving this black and white Malaysian tapir.. :D

Yes, only the Malaysian tapir is black and white... Hehe.....

Happeh New Year!

2008-12-31T08:47:00.000-08:00

Wishes all of you a Happy New Year!

Awal Muharam. Azam Baru!

2008-12-27T03:10:00.000-08:00

This year have been tough on me. Emotionally...

Perhaps it was by my own fault. Until now i just can't figure out what went wrong.

Bah, who cares! Haha...

It's all in the past.

But I do have figure out what I should do next.

I MUST :

Find tranquility.
Score a VERY high mark in my exams in this upcoming semesters!
Get my CGPA above 3.0 before I fly to California!
Make my parents happy.
Save more money!

1. Why do I must find tranquility?

Well you cant live being mad all the time cant you? You cant live being sad all the time cant you?
I must find the swift calm air that have been around me ever since I was born. I'm just not myself anymore. How could I smile while I'm not even happy and knowing that I'm missing something. I missed my shine of tranquility.

2. Why do I want to score a VERY high mark in my exams in this upcoming semesters?

Who doesn't??

3. Why do I must get my CGPA above 3.0 before I fly to California?

Cal Poly Pomona: The seniors say it's better this way. Refer to number 2.

4. Why do I must make my parents happy?

They have always have high expectation on me. But I just cant fail my parents. How could I?
I know that my results are not as stunning as I wanted to in the last 2 semesters. But I do hope there is some light for the upcoming semester. Thus, making my parents happy and somehow I won't disappoint them.

5. Why do I must save more money?

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Because of this...
:D

Well... That's my azam baru for this New Year for the Muslims...
Amin.. I pray and hope that I'll be blessed this year with everything I need to make this possible.

TaDaa~~!!!

2008-12-25T08:31:00.000-08:00

Time : 12.38 a.m

Occasion : Celebrating the birth of my blog!Now, lets wonder what I'll be writing ok?
:D